#2

I have this weird feeling inside me that I can’t explain. I’m not sad myself, but I can feel a deep sorrow in my heart. Whatever this is, I hope it passes soon because it’s killing me. Other than that, my day was… alright? I’m a bit bothered about not having my routine here, but I have more important thoughts keeping my head busy right now. Ugh, that feeling again! It’s like someone is squeezing my heart and punching my stomach. I’m also feeling sad for no reason.

Anyway, when I was out, I took some great pictures, and I’ll attach them at the bottom. I got sick, not surprisingly, since I’m sick almost every week. Some people are born weak, and I’m one of them. I’m weak, both physically and mentally. I’ve spent more mobile data than I should have because I HAD TO watch the Live at Phoenix ’93 Drug Drug Druggy performance :))) In the evening, I spent my time listening to downloaded albums and playlists. I’ll continue doing that after writing this. I’m going to lay under the night sky, on the patio, and think.

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“Last night I dreamt

that somebody loved me.

Last night I felt

Real arms around me.

No hope, no harm

Just another false alarm.

So, tell me how long

Before the last one?

And tell me how long

Before the right one?”

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It’ll always be a false alarm…