#5

I’m trying to be alright. And I will be. Everything will be alright. I’m surrounded by people who care about me, yet I’m so lonely. I’ll be fine. Getting better must be my only priority right now. But why am I crying? Why am I so scared of change? I need to be happy about this. What is this feeling in my chest that’s suffocating me? This feeling will pass. I need to focus on getting rid of this pain. I’m praying to God to remove this sorrow from my heart. I know that tomorrow will be better than today.

I have hope for the future. I’ll visit the places I want to see, and I’ll have the happy family I’ve always wanted. Thinking about these things is enough to make me feel better. Knowing that nothing is impossible helps me keep going forward with my life. But I’m still crying. What if I can’t achieve these dreams? STOP. I will. I will have a family, a proper family. Why wouldn’t I?

It looks like I’m going to cry myself to sleep. I can’t continue writing, or it might make everything worse. I won’t lose hope. “Maybe tomorrow, I’ll find my way home.”

Good night. <3