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Survival instinct, yet no will to endure.

Compelled to exist without what others dare to call "life".

No safety,
No tenderness,
No choice.

Breathe and call it life.
Dragged into a system I never wished for.

Day after day, I inherit battles I never chose, battles that were never meant to be mine.

I only long to sit and watch the others compete.

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Keine Lust

I’ve had this song on repeat for the past few days. The lyrics resonate with me so much, especially the bridge:

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I don't feel like it

I don't feel like not hating myself

Don't feel like touching myself

I would feel like pleasuring myself

Don't feel like trying it

I would feel like getting undressed

Don't feel like seeing myself naked

I would feel like it with big animals

Don't feel like risking it

Don't feel like going from the snow

Don't feel like freezing

I don't feel like it

No, I don't feel like it

I don't feel like chewing anything

Because I don't feel like digesting it

Don't feel like weighing myself

Don't feel like staying fat

I would feel like it with big animals

Don't feel like risking it

Don't feel like going from the snow

Don't feel like freezing

I'll just keep lying here

And I'll count the flies again

I listlessly touch myself

And notice I've been cold for a long time already

So cold

I'm cold

So cold...

I don't feel like it.

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Some random videos and some political stuff... idk...

(I've been obsessed with Golden Brown a little too much)

“To defend the oppressed against their oppressors, to plead the cause of the weak against the strong who exploit and crush them, this is the duty of all hearts that have not been spoiled by egoism and corruption.”

- Maximilien Robespierre

To add to Robespierre’s words:
oppression is not defined by loud claims or agitation; it is proven through evidence and history. The truly oppressed do not seek to destroy their oppressors, but to reclaim their rightful liberty. A society without a history of true liberation cannot return to a free state because it never fully possessed one. Especially in today’s world of established and historically grounded nation-states, a society without a coherent state cannot simply construct one overnight. It is history that forges nations; not ambition alone.
A society without a shared past cannot, and should not, be handed the privilege of self-determination. That is the difference between a warrior and an agitator. Violence against the innocent is not a step toward liberation; it is nothing more than attempted theft cloaked in aggression. A nation with deep history and recognised sovereignty will always find a way to eliminate these agitators and oppressors.

Scream, write, draw your maps...

but you cannot rewrite history carved in stone.

As a final note, I'd like to attach Atatürk's Address To Turkish Youth and a few of my favourite quotes from his speeches:

O, Turkish Youth!

Your first mission is to forever safeguard and defend Turkish independence and the Turkish Republic.

This is the foundation of your existence and your future. This foundation is your most valuable treasure. Even in the future, there will be domestic and foreign evils who will want to deprive you of this treasure. One day, if you are obliged to defend independence and the Republic, you will not worry about the means and the condition of your circumstances. These means and condition may appear to be of an unfavourable character. The enemies that threaten your independence and your Republic may be the representatives of an unprecedented victory around the world. By force and trickery, all the strongholds of the holy motherland may have been captured, all of its dockyards may have been occupied, all of its armies may have been disbanded, and every corner of the country may have been materially occupied. Even more severe and horrible than all these circumstances, those who have power within the state may act with blindness and heresy, even treachery. These rulers may amalgamate their personal interests with the occupiers' political objectives. The nation may be devastated and exhausted in abject poverty.

O, child of the Turkish future! Here it is, even in these circumstances and conditions, your mission is to save Turkish independence and the Turkish Republic. The power you need is in the noble blood in your veins!

27 October 1927

• “Everything we see in the world is the creative work of women.”
• “The biggest battle is the war against ignorance.”
• “He is a weak ruler who needs religion to uphold his government; it is as if he would catch his people in a trap.”
• “Islam, the absurd theology of an immoral bedouin, is a rotting cadaver that poisons our lives. It is nothing other than a degrading and dead cause.”
• "A nation that does not know its past has no future."

— Gazi Mustafa Kemal Atatürk

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I sometimes wonder how my cat would react if I died.

Because I saw how she searched for my dad, cried in front of doors when he died.

That's one of the reasons why I continue.

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